Should I paint today? (options: paint, don’t paint)
I’m upset, do I bring it up? how? (options: bring it up, don’t bring it up)
Do I work on my portfolio or explore more openly? (options: work on my portfolio, explore openly)

The secret third option:

be here and feel the weight of the “should” without immediately obeying
be here and feel the upset, notice the thoughts that accompany the mood
be here and feel the juggling and confusion of priorities

that’s it. when you’re searching and striving and wondering and fearing
you don’t have to solve it, you can allow it.

I think you’d be so surprised
at all the stories we tell and believe
and how beneath it all
you are already complete.

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